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(This blog was originally posted on January 14, 2016)
When someone
dies, it is hard to say goodbye to a person we loved and a relationship we
enjoyed. But, how to explain the intense and complicated feelings of loss and
sadness when we never personally knew the
person who has passed away and the relationship was (and could only ever be)
one-sided?
It isn’t just
that we continue to feel strong emotions about or bonds to the other person
that makes this separation so difficult. Rather, per Hypnosis Motivation Institute founder John Kappas, Ph.D.’s Theory of
Mind, it is difficult to “leave” or let go of a relationship we have outgrown
or has ended because we must give up a powerful known in our subconscious mind. Even when this relationship is
one-sided, the attachment to the other person can still be very strong because
the person represents a powerful part of that subconscious life script. We
still invest a lot of emotion, fantasy/hope and expectations in it. Whether the
relationship consists of binge-watching a favorite performer’s movies,
following the star on a concert tour and trying to meet the individual
“in-person”, the emotional attachment is very real. The emotional “high” we
experience during those moments of real or virtual contact are also very
powerful. Consequently, the longer we have followed this subconscious mental
script, the more difficult it is to stop and let go even when the object of our
affection or interest has passed away.
For years,
people have flooded to Graceland to tour
and take pictures of the estate that Elvis
Presley, aka the King of Rock and Roll, once called home. There is usually
at least one vigil there for him on his birthday, and the Elvis Presley-themed
wedding is a popular attraction in Las Vegas. Some of my good friends remember
how their mother pulled off the road to cry on the shoulder when Presley’s
death was reported on the radio. To this day, they are all devoted fans of his
music. I knew someone else who sobbed for three days when John Lennon was murdered in New York City
and continued to feel sad about his loss twenty-plus years later.
After Diana, Princess
of Wales was killed in a car crash in Paris in 1997—20 years ago, today—it
seemed like the entire world stopped to catch its breath. Suddenly the woman
who had touched so many hearts and imaginations with her seemingly fairy-tale
life was just gone, and her admirers
felt the loss keenly. I remember standing in Hyde Park and watching the gun
carriage bearing her coffin pass, with the sound of weeping all around. I saw
at least mounted police officer wiped tears from her eyes, and a couple of
people nearby called her name, half-sobbing, half-screaming in their grief. I
doubt that many, if any, of the people standing with me to watch the funeral on
the Jumbo-Tron screens set up in the park. That didn’t matter. They were
mourning her as they might a dear friend. When I stopped by the gates of
Kensington Park the following week to drop off a bouquet in the Princess’s
memory, the floral arrangements and tributes extended almost to the curb and
the overwhelming smell of fresh flowers and rotting foliage filled the air.
Radio and television tributes to her seemed to air for weeks, and Elton John’s revised version of Candle in
the Wind played on popular-music radio stations at least once an hour for
about as long.
In January 2016,
Rock ’n Roll icon, David Bowie, passed
away after a battle with cancer. Ironically, just a day or two before he passed
away I suddenly and inexplicably thought of his starring turn in the 1983
vampire film, The Hunger. Other than his song, Space
Oddity, which is one of the most haunting, creepy and even saddest songs I
have ever heard, I didn’t know much about him. As social-media outlets were
flooded with tributes to the star, I had a chance to check out more of his
music. Someone on Facebook shared a video of Bowie performing “Let’s Dance”
with Tina Turner, and I wished fervently for a moment that I could have seen
this performance in person. That man had a voice (and some impressive dance
moves!). I regret sad that I didn’t appreciate his talent more during his lifetime.
Similar to the
fans who are missing and mourning Bowie, I imagine my sadness learning about Alan Rickman’s death has more to
do with what the actor—especially his roles—symbolized for me during various
times during my life. I actually walked right past him in London many years
ago. It was Christmastime, and Rickman was carrying several large bags in each
hand. I remember he was very tall; by the time I registered who he was, the
actor had walked past, his back already to me. I might not even have seen him
at all if the friend I was with at the time hadn’t elbowed me in the ribs and
whispered, “There’s your man.” Looking back on that almost-close-encounter
today, gives me goosebumps. It was thrilling to know I had walked past one of
my favorite actors.
Of all the
characters Rickman had portrayed during his career, the role of “Jamie” in Truly, Madly, Deeply, affected
me the most. It is still one of the only films that can still make me cry even
after countless viewings. Watching Rickman teach on-screen love Juliet Stevenson to let go and
say goodbye to him (his ghost) was and continues to be a symbolic lesson for me
about coping with various kinds of grief and adapting to change. His films will
live on, but the idea that the man in front of (and occasionally behind) the
camera is no longer around makes me feel strangely adrift. It wasn’t like I
personally knew him. I never crushed on him, although I know I am among
Rickman’s many fans that could listen to his signature baritone voice with
those precise inflections for hours.
It is not
unusual to feel sadness and even experience grief following the death of
someone who has played a significant role or influenced your life. It is not
“wrong” to experience these emotions even if you have had minimal or no direct
contact with this individual. Every time you danced to, sung along with or
cried over one of Bowie’s songs, the emotional response that triggered this
behavior was based on how his music resonated with your subconscious
life script. Your memories of those moments are now like snapshots or
movies about what was going on in your life at that moment in time. Similarly,
every time I laughed, cried or cringed watching one of Rickman’s movies, I
responded according to how the scene represented something familiar (known) in
my subconscious life script. I will never be able to watch his films again
without feeling the bittersweet emotions attached to my memories about what I
was doing, where I was and whom I was with, the first time I saw the movie.
For more
information about the stages of grief and processing a significant emotional
loss, I invite you to read my blogs titled Moving
On, Part 1 and Moving
On, Part 2.
Sara R. Fogan, C.Ht. is a certified hypnotherapist based in
Southern California. She graduated with honors from the Hypnosis Motivation
Institute in 2005. Sara has been voted the Best
Hypnotherapist in Santa Clarita, California, three years in a row (2019, 2020, 2021).
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